i myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions
i want to be the girl you fall for when everyone else is falling for you.
its so completely ridiculous. if it was anyone else, i would hold a grudge for months. but with you, i last all of ten minutes before i fall under your spell again.
feel like i've gotten a lot smarter since i've met you. not necessarily within my brain but my heart. i learned a lot from you, i don’t fall for boys as easy anymore. i don't believe all the things they say to me with such ease. i've learned not to take them serious. i guess this is a good and bad thing but i want to thank you. thank you for teaching me not to put up with and believe bullshit.
she's getting stronger, you know, since you didn't push her away. no, you threw her away. she's learned. you aren't the only thing she talks about anymore, she laughs a little more, and i can see that glow inside her begin to flicker again. she's picking herself up and she's getting stronger and immune to you everyday.
wish i had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had.
but, i can't because i know you won't come after me,
and i guess that's what hurts the most.
it’s a cycle. you smile at me. you text me. you flirt with me. you make me fall for you again in a matter of days. then, you’re gone. you act like an ass to me. you won’t talk to me, answer my texts or even look me in the eye. so i give up. i move on. or so i think, until that cycle happens all over again
you want to know what makes me love you more than i loved him? it's because when he got me, i was perfectly unused. i was fearless and a hopeless romantic. when you got me i was bruised and battered. i was afraid of the world and cynical about love. and yet, you didn't leave.
Always hold your head up high, even if on the inside, you're about to cry. Pretend that nothing's wrong at all. Close your eyes before you fall. If you can't see it, it's not there. This is life and it's not fair.’
After all the stupid mistakes that you've made & after all of those flaws that you have, I've noticed that none of it matters because I truly love you. & once you love someone, it doesn't really matter what they will become in this world. So whatever you do in life, I will always love you.
I'm gonna stop looking back and start moving on. Learn how to face my fears. Love with all my heart, make my mark --I wanna leave something here
People always ask me, "Have you ever been in love?"
I tell them, "Yes, but that wasn't good enough for him."
I've kissed your lips and held your hand. Shared your dreams and shared your bed. I know you well, I know your smell. I've been addicted to you
It makes us crazy. It makes reality invisible and it erases all the lines that we shouldn't cross. Because love isn't about fencing ourselves in; feeling safe, feeling sure about the future. It's about scaring the shit out of every nerve in our body, but pushing forward anyway. Because all the fighting and all the tears and all the uncertainty are worth it.
She's a wild one, she was born to run. She's never stopped for anyone and she's always lived in the moment. She's not the kinda girl that falls in love or makes plans. But with you, boy, she did.
I remember accidental brushing of arms. I remember the street light that started it all. I remember sitting on street corners, your fingers intertwined in mine. I remember you saying you would never let me fall. I remember the I love you's. I remember the gift, the surprise, the delight. I remember the goodbye. The I miss you's, wish I could kiss you. I remember the confession. I remember the sleepless nights. I remember the fights. I remember the floor, the couch, the chair. I remember the talk. I remember the war. I remember the tears. I remember the numb, the unconscious, the vacancy. I remember the last goodbye, the last touch. I remember you. Do you even remember me?
How weird is it to think that two years ago I didn't even know who you guys were? Now I can't imagine not seeing your smiling faces almost everyday. So we better not ever lose touch because although I lived without you before, I don't know if I could do it now.
It made me wonder how many times we forgive just because we don't want to lose someone, even if they don't deserve our forgiveness.
I just want them to know that they didn't break me.
Whenever I walk by you, our eyes meet and I wonder if you remember what it was like such a long time ago. I miss you so much but I’m afraid to say anything to you. I’m afraid that you don’t remember, or even worse, that you don’t want to remember me.
Never forget what they did to you
and never let them know you remember. Here’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to stop dwelling. I’m going to stop watching the phone. I’m going to stop looking for you. I’m going to move on. I’m going to meet people. I’m going to live. I’m going to forget all the nights I spent wishing you were here. I’m going to forget the times that it was just us. I’m going to forget the things that shouldn’t have happened. I’m going to forget all the times I opened myself up to let you in, to only get hurt in return. I’m going to forget how I felt about you. Instead, I’m going to subconsciously wait. If you really want me, if you miss me, if you can’t breathe without me, you’ll know. You’ll ring. You’ll text. You’ll visit. And if you drift, if you don’t call, if there’s no texts, if there’s no visits. I’ll know. I’ll know it was never meant to be. And I will continue moving on. And I’m going to walk tall. But in between everything I will forget, I won’t forget the lesson I’ve learned. I won’t forget the feeling of loving someone. I won’t forget the feeling of thinking I’m loved. And I will certainly not forget the hell I was put through to learn all this, to become a better person.
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