.. Then I turned around and walked to my room and closed my door and put my head under my pillow and let the quiet put things where they are supposed to be ..

I spend 23 hours a day wondering whether we're wrong for each other, wondering whether we've got the energy that we need to get through everything that we seem to get into, whether the baggage we both bring would sink a small ship. But in the 24th hour, I realize i've been thinking about him for 23 hours and I come back to him, there's something about him I can't stay away from. Something that makes me want to love him.

i pretend to be strong so maybe one day i will wake up and realize i am okay without you. that you aren’t the thunder or the blazing sun in August. you aren’t butterflies or a certain ten thousand songs or dark circles under sad eyes. and what i am really hoping you aren’t is spinning dizzying dances in moonlight and that special taste of freedom.

He's the one that walked out of my life, not the other way around. If he wants back in, he needs to show me that he won't walk out again.

These words scribbled on this paper, will they heal a broken heart? And that girl you look at in the mirror, how long until she falls apart? And those scars that are slowly healing, will they ever open again? And those lies she keeps revealing, her soul will never fully mend

It’s ok baby girl. Don’t cry. It’ll all get better one day. One day you’ll wake up and you won’t think about him anymore. You won’t find yourself needing him as much as you did or even at all. You won’t cry and you won’t even want to talk to him. But for now, hold on, don’t let him get to you. Try to be stronger then you ever were. Because like I said… everything will be ok. Even if you don’t think it will, it will all fall into place.

In my head I replay our conversations

Over and over 'til they feel like hallucinations

You know me, I love to lose my mind

And every time anybody speaks your name

I still feel the same.. I ache, I ache, I ache inside

be that strong girl that everyone knew would make it through the

worst. be that fearless girl, the one who would dare to do anything.

be that independent girl who didn't need a man, be that girl who

never backed down.

And these nights I get high just from breathing.

When I lie here with you, I’m sure that I’m real.

All because of you I haven't slept in so long,

When I do, I dream of drowning in the ocean.

Longing for a shore where I can lay my head down

Inside these arms of yours.

There's a lot I don't understand. But I do know it's important to keep fighting. I learned that from you. We never win. Never will. That's not why we fight. We do it because there's things worth fighting for

Is it a kind of weakness to miss someone so much? To wish the day would go away?

Like you did yesterday, just like you did yesterday.