I always think of you before I fall asleep. The words you said, the way you looked. The things we laughed about, the silent moments we shared. And when I dream, I’ll dream of you. Because it’s about you, it’s always about you.
I hate what you’ve done to me. You’ve made me afraid to love, afraid to care for anyone, afraid to trust anyone. Ever since you left, after all the broken promises, i can’t trust anyone, i can’t get too close to anyone. I’ve built a wall so high around myself, no one can get in. You’ve made me like this. Every time someone new comes into my life, i distance myself so much from them, they leave. You’ve been the cause of all the dysfunction in my relationships, and you have no clue because i still love you so
much that i’ll never actually tell you any of this.
How long before I'm just a memory, before you can't remember me
You make me really angry, and you know it. You know exactly how to push my buttons, confuse the hell out of me, and make me miserable. But at the same time you're the only one that can fix it when it happened's, and since you don't. I guess i'm stuck like this for awhile.
Sometimes, all you can do is not think not wonder; not obsess; not imagine. Sometimes you have to just breathe. breathe in, breathe out.
And if all those words you said to me actually meant something, maybe we wouldn't be standing where we are today.
Dear Tummy, sorry for all the butterflies. Dear Pillow, sorry for all the tears. Dear Heart, sorry for all the damage. Dear Brain, you were right.
I want everyone to know, but mostly you, that I am so strong. You pushed me into the dirt, but I had the strength to rise again. So don't you ever tell me I'm not strong enough. You made me strong
The way you fit into my arms at night, I'll remember that feeling for the rest of my life.
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